Shadow Messages

It is the darkest time of the year, when I spend more time with the moon than I do the sun. More time in quiet reflection than in motivation and bringing things to fruition. It’s the time of year where I would rather pull out my watercolor paints and spend hours creating than doing anything else.

But although the daylight is dying as we approach the winter solstice in just a few days, here in my little home office, new life is born.

I woke up this morning having dreamt about launching my website, I felt it was a sign, so I spent the entire day using the skills I’ve honed creating websites for my contractor jobs and channeling it into creating this space to launch my practice.

During the summer of 2020, I wrapped up my two years of rigorous didactic training at the Northwestern Academy of Homeopathy and said goodbye to the classroom. This past fall, I started my journey into the homeopathic clinic, taking on my first clients, analyzing cases and making remedy prescriptions. It has touched my heart to already witness subtle shifts in individuals I’ve come to care deeply about.

I’ve found it to be true that you never really know when you’re ready to start something new. You kind of just have to jump in and do it. For me, I’m not sure “ready” ever really happens, I’ve always been so cautious, so hesitant, perfecting the details in my head before I dip even one toe into the water. The past four years of my life have been a testament to throwing caution to the wind. That’s right, close your eyes, breathe in, breathe out, and take the plunge. When you know you’re aligned with your higher purpose, when you know you’re doing exactly what your soul is meant for, it’s not that terrifying to free-fall into a new experience. I trust that I will make mistakes, but I also trust that I will learn from them and my experience of life on this plane will continue grow deeper.

I know that in order to grow, I have to heal the deepest, darkest parts of me. It’s my responsibility to reach down and find those wounds that haven’t quite healed, the parts of me that have been neglected, the parts of me subconscious and unnoticed, the shadow that I’d rather not acknowledge, the inner child that needs my attention. Healing is messy. It’s messy, and dark, and non-linear, and it hurts, sometimes a lot. But although healing can be painful, it is absolutely necessary if we want to grow.

When I started my journey as a student of homeopathy, I made a promise to myself, I promised that I would never stop growing. That means continuing to place myself under the microscope, that means shedding the pieces of myself that are weighing me down, breaking unhealthy thought patterns to create space for healthier ones, examining my lower vibrational thinking and transforming that into higher vibrational being.

I made this promise because I know that I can only ever understand how to guide someone into deep healing if I have done the work myself. To grow is to be committed to your healing and to your alignment. For me that has been revealed in learning to trust that my spirit knows exactly what is meant for me.

One of the many lessons that homeopathy taught me is that our bodies speak to us in symptoms. My chest fluttering, my jaw clenching, a change in appetite, a shift in my dreams, my face softening or tightening, each of these signs are part of my own unique pattern of my energy telling me whether something isn’t right or whether I’m in alignment with my highest self. The more in-tune I have become to these subtle hints, the more easily I can make a course correction or address an imbalance in my daily life. These messages are a gift from our spirit to our physical body, the subtle hints we need to understand where we need to make changes. The more often we tune in, the better holistic relationship we build with ourselves in body, mind, and spirit.

Tune-in to hear your body’s unique message today. What is your spirit telling you?